A New Way To Be

Ever since my Burning Man experience, I have this overwhelming urge to be nice to people. When you are there, everyone is happy, everyone is having a good time - I mean, that's their purpose there! Everyone is friendly and nice. I did not experience anyone being an asshole or judgmental or any of the things that we deal with in our every day lives.

When I left, I told myself that I wanted to keep that vibe going and not go back to my usual jaded self. But,then, life happens.

I find myself getting mad; just like usual.

I find myself thinking people are jerks; yelling at them on the freeway, feeling irritated and calling strangers not very nice names (to myself, of course), and feeling depressed by the ugliness and negativity around me.

I REALLY do not want to be this way. I REALLY want to see the good in people. I want to give people the benefit of the doubt and excuse their mistakes. I want to make people around me happy and make them feel good. I really want this. I do.

So, I guess the big question is, "can I unlearn years of a behavior?"

I don't know.

But, I want to.